Well,
it’s that time again, the time of endings and beginnings, the “New Year”. Not
for me. The beginning and end of my personal year is September. It goes back to
my school days when summer days of freedom and happiness ended, and once again
I was condemned to another year of schoolyard incarceration, and boredom. It’s
one reason why as an adult I take my vacations in September. I like to gently thumb
my nose at that time of misery and despair. I also like the weather and lack of
kiddie crowds.
For
most other folks the end of December is the time of lists, resolutions, and reflections.
Lists made up of the year’s best and worst, resolutions of personal piety and intended
activity, reflections on things that made up the past twelve months of their
lives, and what they want for the next twelve. In the following weeks they
will, for the most part, stay true to their chosen efforts. The health clubs
will be full of the resolutionists making it more difficult for regular members
to get on with their daily programs. By the end of February most of them will
have gone back to their regular lifestyles, leaving the dedicated to their
workouts. Diets will be abandoned except for those who might have someone
working with them, or those with Doctors or partners who nag, threaten, and
cajole.
Most
everyone will read at least one list of best or worst, or they’ll make up their
own. In effect these lists will create a hierarchy of happiness and misery,
accomplishments and failures, and places and people. A year or so ago I was
introduced to the idea of how we create these hierarchies on a blog post by the
actor Nicki Clyne. http://nickiclyne.com/high-five-yourself/
Over
the past while I got to thinking about the concept of how we create our
personal hierarchies. While I was in the Tropics I had time to do some thinking
on it. I felt challenged by the idea of not creating “best” or “worst” lists of
experience or feeling. I found I’ve been making lists my entire life, but when I
took another look through a new lens it all changed. Did I really like Key West
over New Orleans, or Paris over London? Spaghetti over Souvlaki, or omelettes
over poached? One love over another?
When
I eliminated personal judgemental hierarchical criteria I found I actually
liked more and disliked less. I like Key West and New Orleans, and both are
places to which I’ll return, but for different reasons and none of those
reasons involve one over the other. Same with Paris and London, they are both
different, and both have excited me to visit and experience, so I will return
to both and probably on the same trip.
Food?
Well eating the same thing every day is like a prison, and food choices depend
on so many factors including emotional ones. Spaghetti is still my comfort food
even though I have to be careful with all those carbs! As for one love over
another? Love it turns out is just love. Accepted, shared, rejected, or
continued. It hurts or excites, burns or fades, but it should never be placed
in the same hierarchical terms as cars, books, or travel destinations. Doing so
simply devalues the humanity of both people, and the exceptional nature of
humans sharing each other.
There
are so many lists at this time of year, all of them based on some kind of
personal or institutional hierarchical formula. A formula based on behaviour or
performance we expect or dislike. A lot of them are simply based on the voyeuristic
value of the subject. Best and worst dressed, Lindsay Lohan meltdown moments, the
antics of pop porn queen Miley Cyrus, politicians, movies, cars, Bieber blunders,
Mayor Ford fails, and oh so many, many more. Then there are your own personal
moments. Everywhere you look this week someone’s hierarchies of importance are being
placed in your field of view.
One
afternoon in the Tropics, I sat in my office chair watching the mangrove
islands, boats, clouds, birds and tides. I pondered which of them I valued
more, with the critical value being which of the elements I would prefer not to
see. It came as wonderment when I realized that there was no way to make that
list work. All of the elements on that list were the elements that made the
experience whole. That moment refocused me, with the sudden mental shock of how
much we rely on hierarchical reasoning to get through our daily lives.
This
year I have decided I have no resolutions, though I have decided to try and
even out my eyes on the world and try not to think hierarchically. “What if…” I
am thinking, that every moment and person gets the same value as the last, or
next? Except for packing and shopping lists I’m done with the idea that an
entire year of our lives can be whittled down to ten best or worst. Isn’t every
moment with your loved ones the best moment? Especially the loved ones we miss
because they’ve left us?
I
discovered while sitting in my Tropics chair that every moment, even the
problematic and troublesome ones, were the best moments with my late parents,
Aunts, Grandparents, and friends. I could not find a reason for a hierarchy of
good or bad, because there will be no more of those moments, making every one
as precious as another.
So
for this year I’m going to try and not live hierarchically. I’m going to try
and live every good moment as the equal of the last, and treat the inevitable
sad moments as equally valuable. I’m not sure how it’s going to work out but being a lazy sort,
I’m hoping to save a lot of mental, emotional, and intellectual time and energy by not
creating lists.
Happy
“You” Year Everybody!
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